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Some Summer Music!!

http://instanttruth.gaia.com — Sat, 27 Jun 2009 12:03:28 GMT

I just recorded and posted some songs on this site. Please enjoy them.

I have moved forward by taking my poetry and now adding music to it. It only took me 6 months to learn guitar.

http://www.imeem.com/people/GX4GPV7

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Endless You

http://instanttruth.gaia.com — Sat, 06 Jun 2009 10:44:37 GMT

We are all the pearl within the shell. One day the shell will disappear and shining will be the pearl only.

As I get older, and for me its only 43, the small child in me still drives this vehicle. The being that I know I am is still the one trying to park this body, pick up this body and , aaaand... deal with the storms of emotions that pass through it. Have I improved the body, yes at times. Have I mastered the storms and weather.... ha no way. I may have figured out how to avoid stormy emotions but when they his suddenly I become them. In my wisdom I have learned not to beat myself up anymore for the way i act. That is a big realization.

Its funny I always think that as I get older life will get easier and I will be more peaceful and not have to deal with issues, people and events like when younger. wrong. But my wisdom has shown me that perhaps the illusion of finding peace all the time is just that an illusion. After all, how can a concept a concrete one at that like peace ever be places on an ever changing world. Its like trying to paint water. Its always moving and changing.

There is hope though.. the ever changing can be identified and that mystery which moves can be noticed more in the day.... and when it does.... "that" becomes my foundation.

:)

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A song For U niverse

http://instanttruth.gaia.com — Wed, 27 May 2009 21:34:03 GMT

Next Saturday is the monthy open mic night at Starry Nights Cafe. This month I am going to be playing with my daughter Valerie. She is going to sing the climb by Miley Cyrus. I am so glad to be able to get her into music and real glad to be able to play acoustic next to her as she sings. what a bond

Valerie is 8 and has a wonderful rhaspy voice. Just like she has been smoking and drinking for years. what a rockin little girl. I am also playing with my friend Tom who does not play out, he usually plays only in his bedroom on his bed in his underwear. ha... so this should be fun, as I allow the soul to sing from these two to the audience of coffee drinking, bun eating fans.

We are also playing Love and Happiness by Emmelou Harris a duet with me and my neighbor Patty, who sounds just like her.

So three songs, 10 minutes of fun

If you cant make it to the Bakery, open up you windows that night and listen... our young and old souls will be echoing into the night.

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A Walk in the Rain

http://instanttruth.gaia.com — Sun, 17 May 2009 14:55:59 GMT

Last week I visited a hospital as part of my marketing job. After my visit I stepped outside from the main entrance and stood under the covered drop off pad, as It poured buckets of rain. Standing there w/out an umbrella I decided to wait.

Just then an elderly gentleman came out in his electric wheelchair.He was severely handicapped, in that his hands looked like they were backwards with several fingers missing on each hand.

He asked me to get his cell phone out of his bag... so I did. Then asked me to call a number...so I dialed. Then asked me hold the phone to his ear... so I did... and he talked, and talked , talked. And it rained and rained and rained. I stood there holding his phone to his ear the whole time not saying a word.

After he talked,he asked me to put his phone away for him... so I did. He then asked me to get his hat out of his back pack... so I did...then put it on... so I did that too...and to put on his hood... and I did ..."nope not that low, I cant see" he said... and I then fixed it. He then wanted me to turn him towards the bus stop... so I did. He then said thanks as he waited for the bus. (not once ever seeing me)

I then turned and looked at the rain, looked at my car way out in the parking lot and watched a cute girl come in from the rain w/out her umbrella cussing like a sailor all upset because she got wet walking in the rain. (she suddenly was not cute anymore, but more cartoonish)

I then raised my head stuck out my chest and took a big step out into the rain. I walked steadily into the pouring rain to my car. Taking my time as to be able to feel every rain drop on my body. I walked in thankfulness for every moment I just experienced.

Got to my car drenched and happy. Looked into my rear view mirror and saw me all soaked and smiled.

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EGO

http://instanttruth.gaia.com — Mon, 23 Mar 2009 01:25:20 GMT

What will next week bring?

When will I get to a certain point in my life?

When will this or that relationship bloom?

When will I feel better?

I need to get this or that in my life.

All messages from the EGO. As the Ego tries to always look for the most incredible moment and grand finale with fireworks and sparks. Reality is that in planning... this never happens.

Look really at your life. Are not the best times the ones that "you" didnt plan. Dont you have the most fun when there is no "you" happening in the scene.

Finding happiness in life is accepting this moment... the subtle happiness that is always there. This subtle happiness is the glue that hold the puzzle or painting of your life together and is always there.

Fall into your happiness... enjoy your mind rambling fantasies, but just realize that to to minimize being as a separate "you" paints an illusion of smallness when you are much more.

Why be a drop of water when you can know yourself as the ocean.... free and as everything.

Home is here now
a knowing and comfort surrounding
all sound is appearing from the echo
all sight is happening, the seeing is
no one seeing, no one hearing, no one reading this

Now look deeply for the EGO... is it there either?

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Playing

http://instanttruth.gaia.com — Mon, 23 Feb 2009 22:17:11 GMT

My Soul calls today
Always moving
Always wanting to play

If I try to stop and think
My Soul gets upset and roars louder
Bringing me into a spin
Creating chaos
Which my mind calls pain
And my soul calls play

My soul wants to be free
Riding the wind and capturing the mountains
Tormenting my logic to find balance

So I give up and let go
Let go , let go and allow

and see the soul working
playing within
all that is front of me

and I see the wind and mountains as here now
not in dream

all is....play

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Love Appearing

http://instanttruth.gaia.com — Thu, 19 Feb 2009 12:59:31 GMT

We live at the mercy of love. We are born and soon realize love through parents and seek its sweet nectar, then again from others, family, friends, teachers, siblings, spouses, and ourself. We seek love through relationships, an energy that lets us know we are connected and not alone. Love is the final song.

Yet, we have no control over who shall love us or who we shall love. Ever tried to love someone? It cant be done. Ever fallen in love?.. it takes no effort. Like a sneeze love appears, expresses and may move on, often times not as quickly as a sneeze, but you get the point.

and so we go through this life seeking, looking, living for love... and energy, an emotion, an addiction perhaps that makes us think we are not whole unless there is confirmation of this emotion.

and so... what were we before we dis-covered love...?

:)

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I Am

http://instanttruth.gaia.com — Wed, 18 Feb 2009 02:09:34 GMT

Stop

take a moment and rest in the presence of ... I AM

just sit, take a breath and locate the I Am in your life.

See that the I AM never ends or begins and that it is all you.

You are the wind within the breeze
The light within the rays
The silence with all sound
A transparence that appears in everything as all
It may look like other but is composed of the peace and silence
found in and as I AM.

A great moment today, a horrible moment tommorow... all the I AM appearing and dancing

Dont be alone in this ... you are not...

You are always Home... and you never left.

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light

http://instanttruth.gaia.com — Tue, 03 Feb 2009 21:04:35 GMT

Just for today..... sit within your light, its you

follow this light to its endlessness.... that is you too

dissappear into the light into yourSelf, into and as

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there is always something to let go of

http://instanttruth.gaia.com — Mon, 02 Feb 2009 22:19:01 GMT

the place we are always trying to get to.... will come to us once we let go, and once we let go we realize its always been there all along.

so for today... to get to the place I seek... i let go

let go of trying to be a good father and husband
let go of stories and trying to end them correctly or fix them
let go of this place i am supposed to be in my career
let go of trying to know everything
let go of trying to have the answers
let go of controlling emotions by trying to be peaceful
let go of going someplace
let go of bettering is some way
let go of keeping the house clean
let go of worrying

sit, stop and be here in this place and space you and i made.... and your done.

:)

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Cascade lake

http://instanttruth.gaia.com — Sun, 21 Dec 2008 13:47:50 GMT

Cascade lake

I don’t need any liquor or beer
cigarets or fancy toys while I’m here
not interested in religion or politics for goodness sake
all of those are pale , while here at Cascade Lake

on my back floating free
and endless sky, It must be me
jump and splash with all of my youth
who grew up you ask, once you see this truth

Cascade lake Smooth and cool
Swim into the stars in a natural pool
rinse off the day massage by the sun
where no one arrives or leaves but becomes everyone

Sandy beaches, high dives and slides
Endless laughter that hurts your sides
Float across the lake like flying in the sky
wait what looks all day to get here.... now I see why

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Back to the Roots... Its Been Fun... See YA

http://instanttruth.gaia.com — Thu, 11 Sep 2008 20:00:11 GMT

To all my friends here:

I am taking a break for a while from this community. Reasons for this.... Its not the giant adds that are creeping into my typing space, ha ha ha

The main reason is ....The other day I found myself typing away here as my son was attempting to talk to me, frustrated he eventually left. I found myself raeding, blogging and corresponding too much and not Being with the family that was created through me. . Yuk... Dont want that to happen again. So for THAT reason I am letting this web site collect dust for a good while.

There has been some fun and joy in reading and connecting with all of you. And no matter what each one of you does.... weather it be crazy sh**,... fun sh**,... oh my god the world is ending sh**.... or hey look how spiritual I am sh**...... ha ha ha ha Its all a PLAY!!:). It all appears, not in any control by you.... and the screen it appears on and through is You. Know That.

What you seek you are!! You are All of It... always have been.

I am leaving my blogs here to enjoy and heal, as I turn out the light and close the door taking with me the delight in every person I have met virtually here and that means ALL of you!!

and I will walk to my three children, my wife and my new guitar and give them the love and time and all that I have given here back to them.... and water these slightly neglected roots.

for this I thanks you also... its time away from our loved ones and exploring in our own time that allows us to bring love home.

Peace pretending to be.... Mike :)

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I Love You

http://instanttruth.gaia.com — Sun, 07 Sep 2008 11:44:46 GMT

I Love You

End of story. What more powerful words are there. What more wonderful words are there? Why do we seek these words, long to hear these words, and search for this happy ending over and over through life.

At the recent loss of my parents I made sure these words were exchanged and when they were I cried and felt wonderful at the same time. I speak words each time my kids go to sleep or leave for school and also spread them to my wife.

Wouldn't it be great to be able to say these words to strangers on the street. Try it and see what happens. Maybe the next time you are held up at gunpoint by some troubled child simply say I love you. Or maybe the next time the police are in a stand off with the assailant cornered in a home, they speak softly into the bull horn over and over We love you, we love you , we love you. I bet he would come out for a hug, because that is what he wants.

Anyway...."I Love You" love is the glue between I and you. If the "I" is nothing but love (investigate for yourself, do I exist and you will find love) and the "you" is nothing but love also... then these words are pure pointers to a reality that actually exists all the time no matter what the situation. You are love, others are love, I am love, we are literally love.

So "I love you" feels so good to hear because it points directly to WHO WE ARE!!! Together as One and even in illusion of separate.

So I will end here by telling all my friends who stop by to read this, to be with me in sharing this place the one message that you are and seek

I LOVE YOU!!!

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A Most Important Message of Who You Are

http://instanttruth.gaia.com — Sat, 30 Aug 2008 13:30:31 GMT

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Space and Words

http://instanttruth.gaia.com — Sat, 16 Aug 2008 13:31:06 GMT

Each word we speak or write or read is a labeling of the space we are.. each word labels different points in space, thus appearing to divide what is essentially One space. Its amazing how words like "feelings" throw a picture in our minds to a certain space within. Where is this space? and other words like "sky" bring us one place and "rock" another.

Even all of these words you are reading here are bringing you to a certain space. It could be the space within your intellect (wherever that it) or a space of listening to me chat here (wherever that is too)

The greatness of words is that we are all of this space. And each word a label to point to a place... we are all of these places... but wonderfully we also create words that "appear" to put us outside of our Oneness. Words like "me" and "you" what are we if we are outside of Oneness outside of space?? aha ha (smiling)

have fun reading the following words and ask where does space begin and end in this definition:

mind
god
scared
happy
inner peace
them

I could play all day on this one.

So each word you read here is simply space bringing its aliveness to an illusion of a you. You are space, I am space, we are both in ... in this space... as this space..of this space...and we shall re-label this space... LOVE

Mike

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What might you learn to live without, and why?

http://instanttruth.gaia.com — Sat, 26 Jul 2008 01:04:19 GMT

Most of what we end up living without occurs through no control of our own. Just as the sun rises ... it also sets. Fleeting moments of life appear and then sink back into the soup of energy that they came from.

Over the past two to three years I have learned to live without family. I have lost my mother, father, sister and brother and many friends all through various ways. Some have been through death, diseases such as strokes, and others are just parting of ways.

each of these losses opens up room for new people to appear and reflect a part of me that I can enjoy exploring. And for those great friends and family that I have lost... I know their endless echo as it deepens this life.

Is not every moment a coming and a going, a gain and a loss?

I await the sunshine and dance in the darkness... being the space of both.

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Hellooooo

http://instanttruth.gaia.com — Sat, 19 Jul 2008 02:34:46 GMT

Today I spent the whole day looking into the eyes of everyone I passed. I bought gas, went to Dicks sporting good, went food shopping, conducted inservices in front of 15 nurses and passed many many strangers in all of these places.

I seek connection, a smile, a knowing, or even a friendly glance.

Sadly there were none in return

I feel as a charater in a play in which I know each moment as it is occuring and see the insignifigance of all moments. Energy moving as ripples and many selves lost in story.

So at the end of this day I am experiencing sadness and lonelyness.

No connections here today, each person I met was in their story, short glances to process information and incorporate them into their story was all I witnessed. Not one stopped and and was able to BE within my pleasant invitation.

The omega man was I

Tonight I sit alone, knowing all ....feeling ALL..... yet al-ONE.

Helloooooo?

This too will pass as another story starts and I will go into character for fun... knowing... watching and looking ....for another to smile from the same HOME.

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Time to Let Go

http://instanttruth.gaia.com — Tue, 15 Jul 2008 12:37:37 GMT

This is simply the best healing advice one can give another. I may have posted these before but they are always worth a second look and re-minder. I hope they serve you well when reading......

(Poems from Selling Nails on the Beach - Mike Smith)

Time to Let Go

Let go, relax, rest your head on this pillow.
Just for this moment do nothing

Become this silence and space

Listen to the subtle silence within everything

That silence is you
You are...... Being
You are....... Peace
You are........ Love
You are........ Joy
Feel your Self go out to all sound
Sit, be the stillness.... rest
You are All

Letting Go

When you let go... you let grow
Its finally time to let go of all the things you feel you have to do.
Let go of all your worries.
Let go of all you feel you are holding up
It will be OK - you know That
Let It unfold naturally, the way you unfolded and came into this world
It was natural, no help from the mind
Rest into That which you are made of
Love, Peace , Silence, Clarity
You know This, you feel This at times but continue to struggle in pain
It is time now to walk, listen and be different.
Let go of the drama, it will still be there but not within you.
Become That, follow me and watch the drama not live it
Peace is within you
Peace is You

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Three Poems for Wednesday

http://instanttruth.gaia.com — Wed, 02 Jul 2008 11:41:51 GMT

Today is Wednesday. I just woke up and decided to paste three poems from my book here. the first poem is about my interest in how people get so very involved in their story that they actually believe they are there story. I wrote this poem while watching a busy human resource department staff stress out over stories, politics and rumors. When actually all I saw was people sitting at their desks.

The second poem is about the silent whispering language that takes place when strangers or friends meet. Its also about how we can take any object and look at it and go deep within the object, the more you hold it the deeper it goes. Weather it be the hand or mind that holds it.

The third poem then goes on about this wisdom in others you meet, the bridge that connects us all to each other. This happens a lot here on Gaia..... I enjoy the closeness of everyone.

Enjoy ... and soak these in slowly.

Mike

Stop Reading Your Story

Mind brings you to many places
There are great chapters in "your book"
Be the Reader of the book not the book
As the Reader see the transparency of the story
It shapes and molds to character not the Reader
Be the Reader and close the book of stories
These stories are the bricks to your walls
To bring you back to the Reader

Wisdom

That voice within all
With a thousand angles to show us
With a million ways to feel its depth
Always the teacher to remind us
Remind us of who we are and how deep we go
Wisdom plays a subtle song within all our meetings
Allowing us to see the purpose of our meeting
To see the canvas from the painting
The pause from the note
Wisdom is the thousand page book that opens up with
Each grain of sand
Revealing its lessons that we already know.

Meeting

I meet my Self in others
But others don't see it

Their Aliveness covered in thought
Those I meet speak two languages
One language of the mind and one of Silence
The latter required no words but carrier of our Self
Molding our words and allowing us to sit as Silence
No words spoken but plenty known
Nothing has to be accomplished in the meeting

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Perfection here

http://instanttruth.gaia.com — Sat, 28 Jun 2008 10:56:37 GMT

Where you sit now and read this is...... perfection

Weather it be within a story in your mind

or in presence under a tree

This moment is perfect

All who are in this moment weather they realize it or not are perfect too

There is not a better place for them to go for enlightenment, no way of improving

no thing they can do to be more Being.

All of this you see before you is you..... Oneness expressing in all your wonderful ways

See... know......that's as simple as it gets.

Mike

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